Element of Blue

A gentle shout inside my head
Urging me to get out of  the bed
Quickly I got up, confused, whose voice was it?
I didn't know, but it left me in tears
Just a false nostalgia perhaps?
Dazed for awhile, a moment of stillness before the nightmares caught up again

Then they came back
And suddenly a yearning for a long walk
The first mile, I was hesitating
The second mile, I looked behind but didn't